18 1/2 weeks

So I am trying here, trying not to be negative. Trying to pepper my conversations and emails with lots of exclamation points and smiley faces....but I'm wearing down. Last night I threw up and it was awful, I just feel so depressed! Outside a blizzard rages on, the weather is cold and nasty. In addition to the constant nausea that plagues me I also now have the cold that was circulating around the house. Yes, I know it could be worse. It could be ALOT worse. But sometimes you have to play your own violin, then hopefully at some point the tune you are playing will become less mournful and open up into some hobbit like jig that has even merry old Gandalf dancing away. (Okay no idea where that reference to Hobbits came from! Apparently it is time to pull out the Lord of the Rings triology?!)
I feel the baby moving in there and it makes me smile, next Monday we will be able to see how it is doing in there. Is everything looking okay, does the baby have little devil horns like I am predicting from the misery of the pregnancy (hehehehe) or is it just a sweet little baby wondering why it's mom is a puking blubbering fool! I am excited to see the sex of this one. I go back and forth between thinking it is a girl or a boy. A boy seems so foreign, but foreign seems nice and different....and frankly I think Bri needs some testosterone around to balance out this estrogen heavy house lately. But when I look at my girls I want another little girl! Girls are the best....and the clothes! Ooooh it pains me to think of never using these wonderful buckets of clothing again.
So today was just about the whine....no cheese on the menu just lots and lots of WHINING!!!!!